Title: Weary
Author: Eaglewolf
Spoilers: S3
Summary: Buffy pleads with Giles to fight
Rating: PG14
Pairing: Buffy/Giles
Distribution: Everyone likes free things.. Please take it just let me know where you are housing it
Feedback: Yum
Disclaimer: Joss and his playmates own it all.. No matter which sandbox he is sitting in.
Dedication: For Walnut and Cashew coz you 2 are just NUTS!!

"I'm so tired luv," he whispered.

"I know, I know... Hold on?? Hold on for me? The ambulance is coming." The tears were falling down her cheeks. She couldn't stop them. She knew that if he gave up now he'd never last and she would lose him forever.

"I'd follow you to the ends of the earth you know Buffy. You are my world. If I didn't have you I would just give up and not go on. Do you want me to go Buffy or do you want me to stay?" Giles' voice sounded so flat, as if he was ready to just give up. "It hurts, Buffy. But for you I'll live and fight through the pain."

Buffy pulled him up closer to her and rocked him back and forth, tears streaming. "I love you=85 I love you=85 I love you,=94 she just kept repeating over and over. "Giles, don't you leave me. I love you. I can't go on without you. You hear me watcher?? You KEEP fighting for me. Don't give in. I'd fight for you, you know I would."

Giles tried to chuckle, but found himself coughing. "You're more stubborn than me luv. I'm delirious Buffy. You better keep talking to me. I heard you say you love me."

She kissed him then on the temple and held him so much closer and tighter before whispering in his ear, "I did. I do. Don't you leave me."

"I'll try. I can see them waiting for me Buffy. Randall, my mother=85 They are beckoning me. I want to go to them, but if you love me=85 Oh Buffy, what do I do? Do I even have a choice? Jenny's here with me Buffy=85 Oh Jenny."

Buffy just kept rocking her watcher back and forth as he spoke, repeating her mantra "I love you. I love you. I love you."

Giles seemed to forget Buffy was there. His mind was focused on Jenny. A woman taken from him before they had time to learn what they really meant to each other. They'd loved each other, but was it the love of two very close friends, or was it the love of two people destined to be together?

"Oh Jenny, I'm so sorry." He smiled sadly, and shook his head. "I know=85 It was nobody's fault. We didn't know. I love you."

The tears streamed down Buffy's face as she heard him converse with his long dead girlfriend. She knew it came down to this. He would either choose her and life or Jenny and death. She tightened her grip on him and kept repeating her mantra.

"Buffy loves me, Jenny. I can feel it." He cocked his head to the side as if listening to what the woman on the other side had to say and then he smiled. "I love you too. Yes, I understand. Watch over us? I'll tell her. Goodbye Jenny." Then he slumped against Buffy and lost consciousness. Buffy just kept rocking him and chanting as the tears rolled down her face.

Giles laying in her arms, probably dying, had hit her right in the heart. For the first time in her life she really thought she was going to lose him, and it hurt. It hurt a LOT. As she sat there with him in her arms, their entire life together flashed before her eyes. She'd had an epiphany then. Buffy Summers loved Rupert Giles. As a friend, yes, but so much more than that. He was *always* there for her. No matter how badly she hurt him, he stayed.

She crawled in the ambulance and answered their questions the best she could. She'd looked the paramedic straight in the eye and said, "Vampire. I dusted him." When she was asked what happened, he hadn't even batted an eyelid. John had been in the class of 1999 at Sunnydale High. He knew better than most people just what went bump in the night. Buffy never let go of Giles' hand and John never questioned why Buffy seemed so attached to their old librarian. He'd always thought they'd looked good together as they walked the halls and had, upon occasion, wondered if when Buffy was older, something more would become of it.

Giles moaned and Buffy leaned closer to him, stroking his forehead. "It's alright Giles, I'm here. Shhh=85 " She leaned forward and kissed him on his brow.

He quietened as he was reassured of her presence. Buffy's heart skipped a beat. Did this mean=85? Could it possibly mean=85? Did he=85 had he? Had he chosen life? Had he chosen her? Buffy couldn't stop the tears from falling. This man meant more to her than her own life and her heart was breaking as he lay there, looking so broken. He looked defeated, but he'd promised her he would fight if she asked him to and she had.